How many prints can you mash? Anyways this is what I wore yesterday to my lone trip to the hospital > disputed w nurse about taking my blood for liver/kidney function check, she initially refuses > had both hands injected coz the first try was a failure, blood wont come out probably coz I was too stressed out > and blood work result fbc was okay but WBC still 4+, gotta really start taking my chemo meds srsly & not ‘accidentally’ forgot to take it at times. Although white blood cell counts 4 - 11 is normal but mine should be lower since I’m taking chemo pills to make it lower, right? In order to suppress leukemia regeneration. I’ve heard for awhile now that B17 pills are anti-cancer nutritions but they are quite expensive, naturally u can take the source which is apricot seeds. Just found out that @idayezid sells them too but probably at lower concentration since the pills are quite affordable at RM70 for 150pcs. Waiting for my order to arrive. Alhamdulillah I’m doing okay, just need to be more diligent at taking supplements & meds! 😅 thanks everyone for the neverending support ❤ p/s: was wearing sugarscarfbyriqa.com tribal scarf #amischaheera #amiootd #cancer

What I wore to the hospital 2 weeks ago, alhamdulillah all is good but doc told me to double the dose of chemo pill (mercaptopurine 50mg) to 75mg per day coz they wanna lower my white blood cells to around 2-3 (it was 4+ then). So I’m gonna go check my blood again today with liver & kidney check as well. Going to the hosp alone for the first time since I got out 2 yrs ago? Naz is so worried T_T anyways insyaAllah all will be okay. Was wearing Sugarscarf by @eyqasulaiman’s duo-toned kimono & @hm pants. #amischaheera #amiootd #cancer

Finally got my med supply, just finished my check-up today w the oncologist at Hospital Ampang. Blood work still normal. He said, he did expected after my second relapse in May; by now my blood work would be abnormal but alhamdulillah with Allah’s will I’m still here breathing and living. Bone marrow test next month, will see how thing goes then. #cancer #leukaemia #bloodcancer #aml #relapse #medicine #yolo #fighting (Taken with Instagram)

Health juice! Some may have heard of Daun Belalai Gajah (Sabah Snake Grass) for cancer cure? Trying it out for the first time, blend it with green apple and a lil bit of ginger. Honestly tasted like eating green veggie, not complaining! Anything to stay alive (ye lah padahal dari dulu orang dah suruh try makan tapi takut, takut tak sedap 😅) thanks @wartea09 and mom for the herbs (& for the push as well hehe) #herbs #healthjuice #juice #vitamins #multivitamin #medicine #cancer #yolo (Taken with Instagram)

Fact. #cancersucks #goaway #stayaway #sigh #tired #redha #cancer #hospital #appointment #oncologist #leukemia (Taken with Instagram at Hospital Ampang)

Waiting for the future #hospital #oncologist #cancersucks #ihatehospitals #cancer #leukemia #wiwt #ootd #tribal #colors (Taken with Instagram at Hospital Ampang)

The news that brought me to my tears this morning, she resided next to my bed when I relapsed last year. She was going through relapse too. Was such a happy go lucky kinda girl, cheerful and was just so nice to me.. I lent her my magazines, showed her how to wear a turban coz our hair falls off due to chemo and stuff :’( we stayed in touch through facebook but it has been sometime since i last heard from her so I wrote on her wall. Didn’t even think that this was the news I would be hearing. Death, it just puts you into perspective. It breaks you a little, and hopefully it makes me a more wholesome person. Ash, may you rest in peace. God, I’m sobbing so bad the entire time writing this.. Pls take a moment to reflect upon your life, while you still can.. #death #cancer (Taken with instagram)

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laced-emotions:

my grandmother is a cancer survivor. breast cancer. it’s in the family, but my mother and her siblings don’t have it. yet. Nanna (what i call my grandma) was diagnosed in 2005. which means it’s been 6 years since her first lump. there have been many since, but she just beat them all. after several months and years of chemotherapy, she decided to stop all chemo and enjoy the last bits of her life with quality. she didn’t need quantity, she wanted the best of for herself. we were all worried. we weren’t ready to lose our matriarch of the family. but thank God, she, being the fighter she is, is up and cooking in the kitchen and dancing with her husband every oppurtunity she gets.

in 2009, Nanna’s younger sister, Aunty Claire, was going through chemotherapy for her 2nd stage breast cancer which got worse and worse everyday. by December when we visited her, she was with her scarf, her vomit bucket and her bloated belly due to her organs giving out one by one, no thanks to cancer. she was singing to an old christmas song and she said ” i will wait for christmas. i can’t wait for christmas! “.

for christmas that year, Aunty Clare stayed with her family, and we had our own thing. we were singing on the karaoke machine, thanking God that our christmas was blessed with the presence of our loved ones. the clock stroke midnight and we wished everyone before going back to the karaoke machine. it was mum’s turn singing “Bette Davis’ eyes” when we got the call. it was almost 1am, all the grown-ups went to the hospital. We stayed home and tried to be strong and keep faith. i put the younger ones to sleep before dozing off myself.

i woke up at 8 am only to hear that Aunty Clare had left us all at 4 a.m on the 25th of December. She kept her word, she stayed til’ christmas.

i was taken back when i read kak AmiSchaheera’s tweet about a relapse. i wanted to tweet her back with something comforting, but 140 characters won’t even comfort my cat. but kak Ami’s a cat :) she has 9 lives, and she’s ready to kick some cancer in the rear-end, wherever that is.

it’s not that we understand what you’re going through, but we want to be there for you, and help you fight this, to relief you of this pain even if it’s just a tiny bit. i don’t want to lose anymore loved ones to cancer. Never.

Rest in peace, Nanna Clare <3 i know you’re watching us from up above!

BOSTON — Cambridge native and Oscar-winning actor Matt Damon revealed to NewsCenter 5 Wednesday that his father has multiple myeloma cancer and is being treated at Massachusetts General Hospital.He said Kent Damon’s disease is incurable.multiple myeloma is cancer of the plasma cells in bone marrow. Plasma cells help the body’s immune system fight disease by producing proteins called antibodies, according to the National Institutes of Health. In multiple myeloma, plasma cells grow out of control in the bone marrow and form tumors in the areas of solid bone.Matt Damon said his 68-year-old father is doing well and will ‘Fight it to a standstill.’Both Damons were set to speak Wednesday night at a fundraiser in Boston for the Massachusetts General Cancer Center.Damon first won acclaim for the Academy Award winning film “Good Will Hunting” set in Cambridge at Harvard.

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Read more: http://www.thebostonchannel.com/health/28101533/detail.html#ixzz1O4ixD0iR

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Nuraainaa Diyana Mohd Salleh consoling her son Muhammad Rafeal Faliq Muhammad Fairuz, who suffers from acute lymphoblastic leukaemia. — NST picture by Hariff Hassan

KUALA LUMPUR: Its been tough going for the parents of Muhammad Rafeal Faliq Muhammad Fairuz.

The 2-year-old toddler was born with a hole in his heart and suffers from acute lymphoblastic leukaemia (ALL) as well.

At 23 days old, he was found to have ventrical septal defect and a successful heart surgery was done when he was 8 months old.

However, eight months later, this lactose-intolerant baby, who was very pale most of the time, was diagnosed with ALL.

Rafeal underwent two cycles of chemotherapy and the ALL went into remission.

Six months later, he relapsed and had another round of treatment and was in remission again.

Unfortunately, on March 17, Rafeal relapsed for the third time and will have to undergo a bone marrow or cord blood transplant (BMT).

His parents are at their wits’ end in coming to terms with their son’s health problems as they have to raise the remaining RM173,533 needed for the BMT at University Malaya Medical Centre after paying RM20,000 from their savings and Employees Provident Fund savings.

Nuraainaa Diyana Mohd Salleh, 28, said she had started working again as a front desk executive earning RM2,300 monthly after quitting for two years to take care of her son.

“I have finished my annual leave and I am now taking unpaid leave to take care of Rafeal.

“It has been tough since he was born. He and his year-old sister are both lactose-intolerant and need soya-based milk. We spend RM120 for two tins a week.” 

Her husband, Muhammad Fairuz Razak, 29, is a marketing executive earning RM2,020 a month. He took four months’ unpaid leave last year to take care of their son.

“He is normally a very active and intelligent boy. But now he craves attention as he had just completed his chemotherapy of five daily three-hour sessions.

“A side effect of the chemotherapy is that he is suffering from very dry eyes so much that he cannot open his eyes.

“He complains of painful eyes and has not opened his eyes for three days.” 

Those who wish to help him can send your cheques, with his name written on the back, made payable to The New Straits Times Press (M) Bhd, to: The Cashier, Finance Department/Charity Unit, The New Straits Times Press (M) Bhd, Balai Berita, No. 31, Jalan Riong, 59100 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

Read more: Leukaemia boy needs help http://www.nst.com.my/nst/articles/25rafa/Article/#ixzz1JkgqdWJO

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God, the king of universe, is in control of all that happens to us, both good and bad. Cancer is designed by God and is a gift from God. Since God is infinitely wise, it is right to call the cancer design with purpose. God creates a human being with 10 trillion cells, from which 600,000 cells are selected to become cancer cells every day, and only few of the 600,000 cancer cells further develop into cancer. The complexities of cancer are beyond human being’s comprehension. However, God foresees molecular developments leading to cancer, he can turn on or off at his will. If he chose not to turn it off, he does have a purpose. Being diagnosed with cancer can be the best thing that has ever happened to us, since cancer actually save our life. Having cancer is a life changing experience that will grant us eternal life. We learn how to surpass death. We are about to be put on a journey that is full of love, peace and understanding beyond our comprehension. We will receive an abundance of wisdom and knowledge from God. Love is always God’s highest purpose. Cancer let us to learn his finest and most joyous lessons as we find small ways to express concern for others even when we are most weak. A great, life-threatening weakness can prove amazingly freeing. Cancer guides us to love each other deeply. Cancer creates a sincerely affectionate and caring heart for people. We are terrified of facing death. We are obsessed with medicine and idolized youth, health and energy. We try to hide any signs of weakness or imperfection. Cancer brings huge blessing to us by living openly, believingly and lovingly within our weaknesses. We will all die. We may get a heart of wisdom, if we are required to number our days. Numbering our days means thinking about how few there are and that they will end. Illness can sharpen our awareness of how thoroughly God has already and always been at work in every detail of our life. Cancer is designed to destroy the appetite for sin. Pride, greed, lust, hatred, unforgiveness, impatience, laziness, procrastination — all these are the adversaries that cancer is meant to attack. God uses different individuals, from all walks of life to guide his lost sheep back to the universal order. There are no specific qualifications needed when the God chooses one to be a voice for all who suffer in the darkness of this world full of light. God chooses you to go with him with a purpose. He wants you to make impossible thing possible. He wants you to make miracle. If he wants you to leave the earth, he does have much more important assignment for you somewhere else.

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So… today is the first day for my check-up with the oncologist after I failed my blood collection a month ago. Was quite nervous & worried, the point of my check-up was to discuss the in-depth result of my bone marrow, if I’m not mistaken it’s called ze molecular test. Checking for the bad protein in my chromosome within the bone marrow. Woke up & got ready around 6am and we left the house around 7am. And then we had our breakfast at McDonald’s infront of Hospital Ampang at Jalan Pandan Mewah area.

Wore my old Lucky necklace & Maysaa chiffon snood for good luck charm ♥(picture has been edited to shadow my tiny acnes on my forehead)

Found our way to the specialist clinic, got my blood taken for testing & waited for my number to be called. After about an hour waiting while Naz drilling me about his programming ideas about Shop Sputniksweetheart, ting! Number 1506 called to room 36. I almost ran to the room, LOL. But anyways… turns out the result is not out yet.. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. The doctor did say it’s probably gonna take another month so I’ll have to come back at the end of February.

So far from the last molecular test, the percentage of bad protein is reducing. When I was first admitted, my bad protein level was 500%! A normal person should be 0.. After first chemo, it went down to 300% and after my 3rd chemo it reduced to 0.36%, which is really good considering that it’s going down tremendously. But not until it’s 0 that I will be considered as free of cancer. And even then they won’t know whether the cancer will strike back one day, so check-ups will be done periodically.

IF the result of the molecular test shows that it’s increasing, then the doctor said they need to give me an extra strong chemo :’( .. and find me a matching stem cell donor for my transplant. I really really hope it won’t come down to that..

So far, alhamdulillah I’m living as much as I can. The doctor said there’s nothing I can do to make the bad protein to go away or to prevent my cancer from striking back, except to live my life happily, eat healthily & pray. Okay I added the pray part. I almost shed a tear when he said that. Hmm… Friends & sisters, can you help me out please? Do put my name in your prayers please :’( Pray for my happiness & longevity if it’s not too troublesome..

Thank you so much, may Allah bless you all…

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